I am sitting in my office wondering why I couldn't be at the beach this week with the other staff. Overall, I've performed 2 hours of work that I had to be at camp for... the rest - I could've done from the phone. I'm tired. I want to be with my friends. And while Eric, Ann, and I have all be able to enjoy some free time together (and a visit from Ethan), we could be doing that somewhere other than here. I want my Sabbath, dang it!
This week isn't busy. The camp is being run by a group outside of Mt. Shepherd. They have everything under control and except for a couple of words exchanged at meals and bedtime, we have very little interaction with them. I think the reason I struggle so much with this is that I'm moving at a fast pace ALL THE TIME. There's no "in between" time here. It's either 110% or sleep. So now that I have some time to take it slow and amuse myself, I'm not sure what to do.
(Actually I just convinced Eric to watch Arrested Development with me though he's working on tying some accessory cord at the moment)
I hope I can get to a point where I accept free time... but for now, I'm about to drive myself crazy.
- Carley
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